Been having trouble thinking clearly.
Three months of ups and downs.
Took me that long to realize that I need to have my crazy meds reevaluated.
Makes me feel awful.
I know.
It sounds stupid to be upset about that.
If I needed glasses, I'd wear them.
Prescriptions change strengths.
So why is it any different for my meds?
I'm sad.
Three months of ups and downs.
Took me that long to realize that I need to have my crazy meds reevaluated.
Makes me feel awful.
I know.
It sounds stupid to be upset about that.
If I needed glasses, I'd wear them.
Prescriptions change strengths.
So why is it any different for my meds?
I'm sad.
Oh, honey, what would you say to someone that posted these feelings to the band? OK, enough of me giving you shit about it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you get un-sad. I've missed you, you know, jumping into a discussion with "shalom, bitches" and flinging glitter at us.
I love you!
Everyone always talks about how finding the right dose is a process...actually pretty much for almost all medications, now that I think of it. And it's just too easy to blame everything else going on in your life, right up to the point that you realize, no, this is not "just my normal amount of stress/sadness/anger/exhaustion for this situation". Then when you do realize, it's super easy to blame yourself and wonder how you didn't notice. When your situation changes from white to black overnight, it's easy to know there's a problem. But when it sneaks up on you gradually, slipping in a bad day here and there until you're having more bad than good, and you're overwhelmed by work and life, and too exhausted to think anything weird is going on, yeah it's easy to miss. Physical illness can at least be monitored with bloodwork and stuff for that sneaky change that gradually turns you from well to not well. Depression and all those other bastards who make you think you are less cannot. It's Ally's "sneaky hate spiral"! Please know that you are loved and supported, and you are truly amazing.
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